Monday, December 30, 2013

Catch Up/New Companion

Dear Family,

    Wow time is flying by today.  I am doing great, but I only have 30 minutes to write so bear with me. This week was week 11 in my 12 week training program, which means that for the whole week I took the lead in all situations – planning, teaching, finding, coordinating, etc. In other words, I was senior for a week.  It was hard, but I learned and grew.  Honestly, it was fun for me.  I work well under pressure.  I am still feeling a bit sick and weak, but my strength is coming back.
     Please thank Jaclyn and Brother Brim for the sweet emails! They made my day.
December 9th
     We had a great FHE with V. who is a 17 year old boy friend of a member. Sister Z and I taught and were in sync.  It was one of the first lessons where I just knew what to say and ask.  He accepted to be baptized and when he said the closing prayer, man the spirit was strong.  He couldn’t even continue, as he quietly she a few tears. It was a perfect example of someone being prepared, humble, and asking with an open heart and real intent for his prayers to be answered.
December 10th
     We had a district meeting.  I LOVE our district leader (in the missionary sense of the word).  Elder M had an emergency transfer two weeks ago so Elder A. is our new district leader and he is awesome. He is tender but firm with the sisters in the district, and he really motivates with love.  He can hone in on the quality of our work which is the mission-wide push right now. 
     We taught Ros. and Ren.  Ren has a lot of feelings and we are trying to help her sort through them.  The problem is that she has no desire to act.  We were able to ask some inspired questions, but she isn’t really all that receptive.  Ros is really tough to teach because she never stops talking.  But our district leader encouraged us to go one more time and focus on listening to her and asking her questions about herself.  We did, and as we listened to her we were able to discern her needs. Sister Z. was very perceptive and as soon as Ros saw that we really were there to help her and that we really cared about her problems, she started listening to our message.  Listening is so important for everyone. Though I can’t understand every word, the Spirit always illuminates one or two phrases or concerns that I can teach and testify about.
December 11th                                   HOLY RAIN!!! The roads flooded and lots of houses were damaged.  We had a zone conference which was awesome.  Spiritual nourishment for 8 hours.  It didn’t even matter that we got up ad 4:30 and traveled for 3 ½ hours.  The conference was great and was completely focused on improving the quality of our work.  Sister Z and I were completely on the same page, and ended up with a pile of good ideas to implement in our area. 
December 16, 2013

     Wow, I just found out that I will be training a new missionary tomorrow.  I’ve never felt so inadequate in my life!  I have faith that Presidente Lima knows what he is doing, and that he received inspiration for this calling, but I feel as though my abilities are limited to help show a new missionary the ropes.  I pray that I might be able to have trust in the Lord and that he will help me to literally navigate the streets of Rio.  I pray that I might be able to help my new companion by working hard, loving the people, and being exactly obedient. 

Sister Z. 
On another note, Heavenly Father truly prepared Sister Z. and I for this transfer.  This past week was an incredible week for personal growth and we really worked in unity.  Before I received news that I would train, we felt tranquil.  I felt the urge out of the blue to express love for Sister Z.  It was a special moment.  I am grateful that we have transfers because they often give opportunities to see and appreciate all of the strong points of our companions.  Man does Sister Z have a plethora of spiritual strengths.  She is a dang hard worker, has an immense knowledge of the scriptures, loves children and the elderly especially, testifies and teaches in every opportunity, and rarely complains about personal pain or discomfort.  Her head and heart are in the game and I am extraordinarily grateful that SHE was my trainer.  I can see the difference that obedience, hard work, and love make in missionaries, and we definitely grew in all three of these areas. Our last day together was busy, and sad, and full of nerves.  She will be a Sister Training Leader (like a zone leader for sisters)  and she will be opening an area with her former trainer. 


Dec. 17th

     I picked up my new companion, Sister S. and we arrived back in our area before 3 p.m….early enough to do a full day of tracting and teaching.  Everything went amazingly smooth. We did almost all of our contacts, had lessons with members. 

     Navigating is really difficult. The roads here are a ramshackled mess with no apparent patter for numbering houses.  That, coupled with my amazing natural sense of direction has led to a lot of wandering/walking/asking people for directions. 

Dec. 19th

     Well this is really hard! My new companion is Sister S., and eager 19 year old Rio native.  She is serving a “Corto Prazo” or a short mission.  Meaning that she hasn’t been through the temple, been set apart, or had the training of the MTC. She’s from really humble circumstances....she is VERY green, but reallllllly sweet and enthusiastic. She’s timid but is sensitive and sympathetic. We’re learning a lot together.
And really, I’m staying incredibly focused and haven’t thought too much about Christmas...the Lord is helping me to guard my thoughts and to stay focused on the people and needs here. Blessings! This week was LONG, HARD, and HUMBLING, but we had many miracles and worked really really hard!
FYI  Mom:  My shoes have just about given out after only 6 months, but I guess that is 1/3 rd of my mission so that is not too bad. I am taking them to possibly be re-soled today. If not, I will switch them out for the new shoes that you sent me. I am so glad that you convinced me to bring extra shoes.

Dec. 23rd

     Once again I find myself without much time to write – only 15 minutes for the rest of the day.   I opened my stocking today…I may or may not have cried like a little girl.  Somehow opening the stocking let a myriad of emotions flood my mind.  It was like the wall of service, thinking about investigators, worrying about my newbie, and everything else that has been holding my emotions at bay was broken down in a matter of moments.  The presents were awesome, each one make me smile – especially as I thought of you  packing this gift with love and thoughtfulness. 

     Things are going well, though very stressful.  My language skills are progressing, but I definitely feel really humbled.  Sorry that I can’t write more, I am out of time for the day.

I look sunburned...but it is just the HEAT!
     Welp, I am finding myself with a few extra minutes at the end of my email time. I am well, though it is HOOOOTTTTTT and we are walking a LOT. I am super exhausted and find myself with a TON of responsibility, but all is well. Can´t wait for the SKYPE!



Sister Colvin

Monday, December 16, 2013

THE SHOW MUST GO ON!

WARNING TO THE FAINT OF HEART OR STOMACH - this post contains Sister Colvin's first encounter with the Brazilian Barfs.
 
Monday December 9, 2013
Week 10 in Santa Margarida

Dearest Family,

Super exciting to hear that K. is studying the gospel!  Please let her know that the gospel brings direction, purpose, hope, and joy to our lives – something that I see and feel every day. I am so grateful for the gospel and I know that it can bless her life.


I got my Christmas package and I was able to salvage just about everything – magazines included.  The reins smelled a little weird, but I cleaned them and aired them out and now they are okay.  I must say that the weiner dog is my favorite part (and the Nutella)  I sleep with the doggie every night. Haha.  I exhibited self control and I am waiting until Christmas to open my card and stocking. 

Weekly Update time.
Monday…as you know, last Monday was a difficult p-day.  SERIOUSLY.  We wasted time looking for bags, ate lunch super late, then had to leave the house way early.  Not fun. I was in a super grumpy, ungrateful mood, but as soon as we started working and teaching again, I regained focus and drive.  We had a great evening of teaching and doing contacts.

Tuesday – Rough.
Today was terrible and comedic at the same time.  I woke up sick and my stomach was super bloated.  Most of the morning was filled with bouts of diarrhea followed by sleeping. I managed to make it through companion studies and then we left for lunch.  Sister Z was in an oddly happy mood.  Our lunch appointment fell through so we ate out – and I ate too much.  After walking for about 30 minutes, we stopped  at a members home to use their bathroom…..Eventually we decided that we better call Sister Lima (our mission president’s wife).  She asked us a series of questions, which Sister Z answered for me, while poking my ballooning abdomen.  We got directions to take a specific medicine and return quickly to our house.  Irma D., a really sweet lady in our ward, had the medicine and was really kind and tender towards me.  We paid t have a van take us back and after about 20-ish minutes the medicine started working…at least the balloon began to deflate….loudly…it was so BAD!  Thank heavens Sister Z was in a ridiculously happy mood. We returned to our house, and I proceeded to sleep like a farting log for 3-ish hours.  I couldn’t sleep anymore and wanted to leave the house to get something done, but between the farting and the nausea, we decided it was best not to work in the 90 degree plus weather.  We worked on the area book instead, which was very productive but not super satisfying. 

Zone Training Meeting
Wednesday
We had zone training in which I only had to leave once….so it was progress on the sickness.  My stomach was still not normal, but I was determined to work.  We taught M. the law of chastity and she said that she was willing to live it.  We thought it might be a problem for her because she has a one year old child and a boyfriend.  But, she stepped forward with faith and is ready to commit to changing her life.  I was able to testify of the blessing that living this law has brought to my life – one of which is that I have more self control over other temptations in my life.  
Elders from my MTC district.
Thursday
We received 7 referrals within 24 hours and ran around like mad women trying to contact all of them because we have guidelines to contact referrals within 24 hours of receiving them.
            We taught M the remaining commandments and ran through the baptismal interview questions with her.  She is so ready to take the step of baptism.  Though her understanding of the doctrines and principles of the gospel is simple, her desire to follow the Lord is great.  Her baptism is set for Sunday.
            We also taught G, who is still struggling with the Word of Wisdom.  He has such a strong desire and is faithful about everything else, but he just can’t quit smoking.  We love him so much and want to help him to be obedient, but it is hard for me to identify.  We will just keep trying to help him the best that we can. 
My feet after a rain storm!
            After G. it was about 8:15 and we decided to try and contact one more referral.   We walked deeper and deeper into an area when the wind started to pick up , the rain came, and the street lights went out.  SKETCHY!!  We asked locals where we could wait for a van, then walked the 1.2 mile in the rain to that spot, and waited under a tarp/roof thing near a bar.  We got there at about 9:00 p.m. and got pelted by the rain and the wind (because we did not want to enter the bar.)  After 15/20 minutes of waiting with NO vans coming, I entered the problem solving mode.  We called 5-6 members until 1 answered, and humbly and graciously I asked for help.  Then we called our district leader and zone leader to let them know what was going on, and then we called the other sisters in our house.  THEN, instead of standing and doing nothing, I asked if we could use one of the bar’s tables outside of the bar so that we could do our nightly planning.  We were soaked but in good spirits.  The member arrived around 10 PM and we got home around 10:30.  Luckily Sister Z and I just laughed it off and said our prayers of gratitude that we returned home safely.

Friday
It was another painful planning session and companion inventory. I think we were both wiped from the long day before and we just really weren’t on the same page.  Things go  much better after we got to work.  We taught R. with Irma Rosne.  R. is gaining a testimony, but she won’t come to church.  She has accepted baptism, but is still having a hard time putting her faith into action.  It is interesting to notice how directly faith and action really are.  The more converted to the doctrine of Christ we are, the more we desire to act and change to have Christ at the center of our lives.
            Remember the sister C. who took care of her elderly parents?  Her mother passed away this week and we visited her with A. and C – two young, sweet girls in the ward (18-20is).  A. was amazing and really helped to mend Sister C’s heart. Sister C is going to start to do family history work.  It is really amazing how much peace different aspects of the gospel and the work of salvation can bring people. 
            Our ward is largely made up of the Curty family and their children.  They are ALL converts and each one of them has a remarkable testimony and a different spiritual gift.  We took J. out teaching for the first time. He’s a big guy, but he was nervous.  When we taught the lesson, MAN, his testimony and ability to relate to our investigators blew me out of the water!  Afterwards he expressed how he always wished that he could have served a mission, and how he needs to share his testimony more. 

Saturday
Today was an answer to prayers. I have been feeling inadequate this week in many ways. It was kindof a “crap, I’m at the end of my 12 weeks of training and have I done everything that I could have done” moment. I prayed for patience and guidance so I could feel as though there really is a reason why I am here.  And I received very specific responses. 
#1 M. had her baptismal interview and is really excited for her baptism tomorrow.  It has been a great experience to bring the gospel message to her.  #2 I am accompanying the primary program tomorrow which they would otherwise have to do with a CD player.  After practicing today, one of the leaders commented how nice it was to have the piano.  For me, playing the piano is a very ordinary, daily ting, but I can see that my ability to make music is helping this ward. #3 We taught A., a very difficult investigator.  He has an extensive knowledge of the Bible and he is afraid of reading the Book of Mormon.  Today we used Matthew 13 and Alma 32 side by side to talk about the principle of sowing a seed of faith.  Sister Z taught well, and I taught well.  A. felt the spirit…but he still didn’t get it.  All we are asking is for him to read and pray, but he has to choose to do it himself.  We can’t give him a testimony, he has to do the work himself.  A. is very kind and hospitable but he is very difficult to teach.  God heard my prayers and helped me to testify in the right moment, Portuguese came easily, ideas came to my mind, and I know that the Holy Ghost helped me. 

Sunday
I woke up at 5:00 am with intense abdominal cramps and nausea. After having diarrhea and feeling febrile I ate some bread, took some motrin, and tried to sleep.  I was ale to get some rest until my alarm went off at 6:30.  I said my morning prayers, had some more morning prayers, had some more diarrhea, and then decided to lay back down so I could hopefully be well for church.  I slept until 7:45 felt better, ate breakfast and got ready.  Then I walked to church – which is when the nausea and the cramping really kicked in.  I made it through Relief Society meeting, but then had to spend much of the 2nd hour in the bathroom.  I was determined to tough it out but it got worse towards the end of the 2nd hour.  You may be wondering why we didn’t just return to our house and sleep and rest…well, it was the primary program and also M. and E’s baptism.  It was not exactly a Sunday that I wanted to miss, especially because I was accompanying for the primary program.  So, battling intense nausea and stomach pain, I went forward. The first ½ of the program was okay, but during a hymn that the congregation sang with the primary, I  *literally* threw up in my mouth…. Not wanting to have 100 Brazilian women fuss over me, I covered my mouth with my left hand and continued playing with my right hand.  After 2 more verses, I quickly processed my options and decided to use one of the bags of candy as my throw-up bag. So, in the 2 minutes between songs, I emptied the candy and then the contents of my mouth.  It was NASTY…but, “the show must go on!”  I made it through the program and then had to tough it out through the baptism.  For some reason, the only thing that helped battle the nausea at that point was to eat/suck on hard candy.  8 hard candies later, we had a beautiful baptism and NO VOMIT!  M. was glowing and it was a perfect service. She already knows the RS presidency and has awesome visiting teachers. It was so neat to see Maykon baptize her and truly the gospel blessing a son and a mother.  (We are also teaching his sister.)


            After the baptism we finally called Sister Lima to ask what we should do. She told us a list of medicines to buy and we walked ¼ of a mile to buy them..battling nausea along the way.  We then had “lunch” at Carlos’s house (the last thing that I wanted to do), and after feeling even more sick, Sister Z and I finally decided/admitted that we would have to return home and give up another day of teaching.  Carlos and another Irmao gave me a priesthood blessing and then Carlos drove us home.  Picture 3 women, 2 small children shoved in the back of a VW rabbit, then add heat, the lack of driving rules, speed bumps, uneven roads, etc…NOT my favorite part of my mission!)  Literally seconds after opening our gate, I finally let my determination down and let my natural physiology take over.  I vomited…and vomited….and VOMITED!  The only time I remember vomiting like this in my life was when I was traveling to Inavale with the Shanks.  It was so bad!  I tried to sleep, but ended up having more diarrhea.  I tried to drink water, but ended up vomiting some more.  I finally was able to sleep a bit, but we had everyone and their dog calling us to see how I was doing.  After several hours I was like: “Okay, this isn’t working.  We need to go to the hospital and get an IV and figure out what is going on.”  (My will power is a lot stronger that I thought.) After calling Sister Lima again and getting instruction on where to go, we had a member and her husband, Brother and Sister Valle,  drive us the 30-45 minutes to the hospital.  I have never been so sick.  Upon exiting the car near the ER I vomited again, then again when I entered the ER, then again right when my name was called.  Sister Valle was a huge help and aided in keeping Sister Z calm.  She helped fill out the paperwork and explain to the doctors what was going on. 

(side note: Hospitals in Brazil are definitely not a sterile environment, and I definitely doubted the education of the VERY young doctors. I wanted to see credentials of know if the screening process involved a real doctor, but my language skills aren’t quite there and I think it might have come across too rude.)

(Other side note: I have people fussing over especially in a foreign language. “How are you feeling?” “Sick” “Are you feeling any better?” “No.”  “What have you eaten lately?” “Nothing”  “Do you know what made you sick?” “No” – unless it is the 100 different theories of what sickness I could have under the current living conditions I an in. I tried  to smile and appreciate their signs of concern, but all I wanted was solid medical advice.)

#highpointoftheday
             The “doctor” gave me an IV with fluids and some sort of anti-nausea medication and then told us to wait with a bunch of other sick people until my name was called.  After 2 hours of trying to avoid watching a football game and having another bout of the runs we decided to ask Sister Valle to help us again.  After some persistence and patience, a VERY cute/handsome young “doctor” came and explained in ENGLISH what was going on #highpointoftheday.  He was super nice and even asked questions about our work as missionaries.  Sister Valle was such a trooper and even walked us to the drug store.  Yes, after 6 hours of pooping and vomiting, I walked ½ mile to the drug store and got Floroutil: saccharomyces boulardil and cloridrato de ciprofloxacino, which I will take 2X say for 5 days.  Brother Valle then drove us to his mom’s house to eat a little bland rice and water, and then drove us home.  Our District Leader wasn’t too happy because we got home way past 9:30, but I was past the point of caring. I took medicine and had one final trip to the bathroom before bed.  Then I actually had a good night’s sleep and I feel pretty good today.

            Through this crazy experience, I was impressed by the love and concern that was given to me.  Sister Z actually showed some motherly tender instincts, Sister Valle sacrificed a tone of time and energy, and there were so many other blessings that came from this experience.  I am grateful for not being more sick, for being on the road to recovery, and for the many growing experiences that Sister Z and I have had together.  She and I are learning to call on the Lord for help. 
            I read in the general conference ensign that my mom sent to me a story that goes along with this, “ a Young boy was trying to smooth out the dirt area behind his house so we could play there with his cars.  There was a large rock obstructing his work.  The boy pushed and pulled with all his might, but no matter how hard he tried, the rock wouldn’t budge.  His father watched for a while and then came to his sone and said, “You need to use all your strength to move a rock this large.”
            The boy responded, “I have use all my strength!’
            His father corrected him, “No you haven't., you haven't asked for my help yet.”
            They bent down and together moved the rock easily. 

The analogy is obvious, but profound.  So often we are given trial of faith, harships, and heartache. So often we don’t understand why things are so hard or why we can't overcome our circumstances…and yet the Lord promises us that we can – with His divine and ultimate power.  It is my testimony that as we call upon the Lord in our weakness and humble ourselves before Him, He will help us move the boulders in our lives and gives us forces to do things we could never do on our own.  (Ether 12:27, Alma 26:12)
           
Missions are hard work. It sucks to be so far away from home – especially when sick, but the experiences of faith and testimony far outshine the hardships. This is the Lord’s work. The church is true.  I love you all TONS and I hope that Levi has a very happy and special 18th birthday!

Ate o proximo p-day… Con amor,

Sister Colvin

PS. I will be staying in the same place but training a new missionary. I find out tomorrow who she is.  I was told that it is a mini missionary, which is what the South Americans do to “try out” what it is like to be a missionary for one transfer. I am excited and nervous about the new responsibility. 

Monday, December 9, 2013

MOST. FRUSTRATING. P-DAY. EVER.

 Monday Dec. 2, 2013
It's snowing in Rio somewhere.


Week 9 in Santa Margarida

Dear Family,

         This week has gone by so fast!  I have been having a fair share of phantom PMS-ing, intense dislike of Brazil, homesickness, and a desire to eat a lot of cookies – so shark week is around the corner. Watch out Sister Z!
         VERY IMPORTANT: Please thank Becky Smith, aka – best mother-in-law-of-my-sister EVER. Her pictures and emails make me smile and feel loved.  I keep forgetting to respond to her and didn’t want to go another week without thanking her!

Monday:
         We started teaching A., who is a single man in his 50’s.  He is really nice and welcoming, but he belongs to “Assemblaya de Deus”, which is a predominant and particularly loud/obnoxious church down here. Typically, members of that church don’t listen and just want to bible bash.  Alberto was this way as well, but we’re working with him.
         We taught M’s mom and marked a baptismal date for her! Her faith is increasing rapidly and I have a huge love for her and her family. She has a one year old little boy, named R., who is super cute.  He really like me for some reason and it’s hard to not scoop him up and sit him on my lap.  I think that Heavenly Father is helping me with my lack of motherly instincts.
         We received counsel during our conference with a regional authority that we are NOT to use backpacks at all.  Sooooo, Sister Z and I spent a good chunk of our p-day traveling to Campo Grande to look for decent side bags.  SHOCKER…we couldn’t find anything.  My plan is to buy a cheap mission bag from the office and see if I can survive.  I feel terrible because my backpack is expensive and is perfect for me. But, I want to be obedient….so I guess I will sacrifice my spine.
Tuesday:
         About 10 minutes before district meeting we got a call from President Lima, sending Sister Z and I into a state of panic.  Usually phone calls from the mission president are for something dramatic like emergency transfers….Well, he just decided to “drop by” our district
meeting.  I tried to be on my best behavior as I resisted the urge to scratch my itchy mosquito bite infested legs.  District meeting was good. 
         We had an investigator try and set us up with her 15 year old son….she’s a little cray cray. Then after that lesson we were walking and I noticed that Sister Z didn’t have her name tag on.  We’re pretty sure that our investigator is holding the name tag hostage until Sister Z agrees to marry her son. 

Wednesday:
         I am losing motivation to write….so tired today.   
         T(27) and M(17) are not legally married.  T is working really hard and desires to find answers.  We’ve taught him 3-4 times and he asked good questions.  He has also asked pastors of different churches what they know about Christ establishing a church…much like how Joseph Smith searched for the truth.  Hopefully, we can continue to help T find his answers.
         R. – my love for her continues to grow. She is learning to read!  It is still slow, but the progress is tangible.  We’re helping her prepare for baptism. 
         M’s Mom – we taught her the Word of Wisdom and keeping the Sabbath Day holy.  She accepted without blinking an eye, and even talked about how she used to be a heavy smoker, but quit when she was pregnant.  She is very prepared to hear the gospel. I can actually feel how my testimony is helping her to develop her own testimony.
         We had a wedding reception for a couple.  The husband is a member and the wife is going to start taking the missionary discussions!


Thursday
Elder S and comp
         Giant multi-zone training with Elder Gavarret. It took all day and involved a lot of public transportation and sitting on uncomfortable church pews, but I got to play prelude music and see Elder S, so it wasn’t too bad.  The conference itself….hard to explain in English.  President Lima and his wife had great talks, but we got burned by Elder Gavarret.  I have never felt so tense in my life.  He had a different way of inspiring change. Sister Z and I took some good things from it, but we also have residual knots in our necks from the tension.

…..UGHHH. Today is the  MOST. FRUSTRATING.  P-DAY. EVER.

We just got news that we have to email some progress record, meaning another 45 minutes spent/wasted with no time to finish writing this letter. 

Wow, this is a negative letter.  Sorry for the lack of details.  I promise that I am doing fine….just shark week approaching. I love you all and my heart aches to be with you at this time of year.

Be good! Con Amor

Sister Colvin

PS. I just couldn’t leave this on such a negative note.  Bishop Curty (the father of one of the Elder’s who helped Garrison/Elder Colvin so much) is amazing.  He is incredibly intuitive and sensitive.  He always expresses sincere love and appreciation for us. I usually tear up a bit when we talk to him.  He is a huge blessing.         

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

Minor Irritants

Week eight in Santa Margarita
November 25, 2013

Revolutionary Concept!
Dearest family, I love reading your letters. Mom and Dad, thank you for writing so faithfully every week! I laughed and I cried while reading your letters this week. It's so hard to be separate at this time of year – birthdays, holidays, winter, etc. Luckily we are working really really hard so I'm often too tired to think of becoming homesick or anything other than putting one foot in front of the other on these terribly uneven dog poop and trash covered streets.

Dad – I've been thinking a lot about the day of judgment as well. Some days I feel like it will be a happy moment to see all the joyful moments and all of the changes I have made, but other days I feel an immense inadequacy and responsibility to do more and become more. I am thankful that we have the chance to continue to learn and grow after this life.

…I can only imagine the trauma of all those people in the Philippines after the typhoon… How is sister Webster? What a trial those poor missionaries and saints are going through.  It is remarkable that they are all safe!

…There is such a special spirit about apostles! I still remember how I felt when Richard G Scott spoke to us in the MTC such an intense peace and assurance. It makes me wonder what it will be would have been like to be among the original 12 apostles, or to be taught at the saviors feet. There is so much to look forward to in this great plan of salvation.

Mom – I just love you. Thank you for all the details in your letters! I am glad that the Mormon mommy blog stockers get a kick out of my letters. I am not one to hide details about dead birds, cats, and dogs in the middle of the street or how they are honestly very few things about Brazil that I love, and how I don't have the desired to return to this corner of the world… But maybe the more positive and spiritual details are of more importance.

Levi – I haven't heard from you in a while, hint, hint!

Sawyer – I'm sorry to hear the school is rough. Gunawan one is a hard teacher! Just work really really really hard. Your rockets looked awesome.

Weekly update:
Our mission, like most, is really into numbers though I am not sure what they all really mean.  Mine for the week: 12 members present's, 16 other, 23 new investigators, 6 recent converts, 214 contacts, 2 family home evenings.

Monday  - This was a good p-day, we ended up walking a lot in the evening, and as a result we had some good street lessons.

Tuesday – the day started with a 7 AM phone call from our zone leaders to let us know that we would be having a zone wide fast, as well as zone training rather than a district meeting. I groaned and groaned, and then I detailed all the reasons why I didn't think fast was a good idea (i.e. heat, dehydration, heatstroke, migraines, kidney damage, irritability, etc. ) Sister Z just listened, then laughed, and shared how we learn things on the mission, and that sacrificing is one of those things we learn. I thought "Am I not sacrificing enough?" She patiently and lovingly explained how biologically it may not make sense on a very hot work day in Rio, but that the Lord strengthens his servants when they show humility and sacrifice. She told me to forget the education I have received in physiology and to just trust in the Lord. Luckily the spirit helped me to recognize that I have been in the wrong. I said a prayer repentance and decided to fast. We ate lunch at a special restaurant in Campo Grande – think Tucanos but with pizza! It was a really good. I ate way too much. My food baby - Juan Pablo is going pretty rapidly. It was like $10 for an unlimited gourmet pizza and drinks! We had a good zone meeting where I was able to converse with Brazilians. Progress! Even though we return to our area around 5:30 we taught a miraculous six lessons and found four new investigators – a miracle that I attribute in large part to our fast.

Wednesday – We talked T and R again. Sister Z and I were really teaching well. I've been praying very specifically to be able to speak and understand during lessons and Wednesday was a testament of this. We taugh the gospel of Jesus Christ through the Book of Mormon. I invited them to keep some commitments. R is a really noncommittal person and likes to dance around the subject. I get the impression I got the impression to be direct, bold, and firm with him. (Sister Z later commented that I completely surprised her with my invitations and directness.) R accepted my challenges, and then Sister Z played the good cop and invited him to be baptized, which he accepted if/when he gets an answer to his prayers. Hopefully he can recognize the differences he needs to make in his life. It is heartbreaking to see little baby J with a righteous covenant making mom, and a dad who isn't concerned about faith.

Oh man we taught a beautiful man. Beautiful. It didn't help that he was shirtless either. It was a street contact lesson and Sister Z was really confused afterwards because I had been uncharacteristically quiet during the lesson, ha ha. I was trying so hard to remember my missionary purpose and not to admire his perfectly sculpted body, green eyes, and superman hair that I temporarily lost all ability to speak Portuguese!

We also were able to teach some of G's friends – he's turning into such a great missionary! He bore his testimony and explained the Joseph Smith story with remarkable understanding.

So we had an appointment with the family and had set it up for our ward mission leader and his wife to come and teach with us. As we're walking to the appointment, we passed by another recent convert of about 3 to 4 months. He had some difficulties walking and speaking, but he has a sweet testimony and spirit. He hadn't been to church for two weeks, and as we bustled to our appointment we fail to stop and say hello – even though he was sitting in the front of his house. With every step my guilt increased. Sister Z asked, “Do you think we need to visit him?” But still we pressed forward to our carefully planned and coordinated lesson. Upon arrival we knew we had made a mistake and that we failed to heed the promptings of the Spirit. We then quickly explained the situation to our ward mission leader, left him stranded with the family, and literally ran the 1/2 miles back to Antonio to give a quick lesson. We have no idea why it was so important to return, but I know it was the right thing to do even if it was a little bit of a delayed he visits to the spirit.

Thursday – Thursday was such a day for miracles it was so hot the kind of heat that leaves you sweaty and empties your water bottles in about three minutes. We drank probably 3 to 4 L each. Miracles: 1. We found five new investigators.  2. Members offered water and rest in the heat of the day. 3. Members willingly left the relative comfort of their houses to teach with us. 4. A member gave us a ride across town in the air-conditioned car. 5. His wife give us bread and Popsicles. 6. M's mom and sister accepted to be baptized! 7. A man who hasn’t accepted the book of Mormon for six months welcomed us and agreed to read! 8. Portuguese and teaching came easily. 9. I didn't get sunburned! 10. We didn't have pain despite a lot of walking.

Friday – we had a great planning session and companion inventory! Sisters he has gained her testimony of doing companion inventory – we shared strengths and weaknesses and embarked on the date feeling a lot more unified. She shared some beautiful compact compliments with me including that I'm really good at reading people and demonstrating love and connecting quickly. Bishop Carlos and other leaders have commented on this as well I think the Lord is blessing me with no strings in order to cope with the language barrier, because I know that in pre-mission life I wasn't very good at or or I was a very good or compassionate listener

We had a special lesson with R – a woman who lives in a tiny brick house with dirt floors and bedsheets for curtains. She was taught the lessons one year ago and was going to get baptized, but her mom was super anti-Mormon. Her mom died a few months ago, and we visited her for the first time on Friday. We soon discovered that she doesn't know how to read, but she is learning. Sister Z patiently helped her read two paragraphs of the introduction of the Book of Mormon. It was pretty magical to watch pure love flow from SZ and the spirit touch ours heart she excepted to be baptized.

Remember the investigator who Bible bass during gospel principles? Well we returned to  try to teach the Gospel of Jesus Christ using the book of Mormon and the Bible. Rough lesson! All he wanted to do was fight and talk over us, or argue over the doctrine of the Bible. We tried to maintain composure and testify, but my blood pressure skyrocketed during the lesson, and my body was a ball attention afterwards. SZ and I ate some chocolate cookies and did some breathing exercise before next teaching appointment.
 
We taught M’s 17-year-old sister about learning to recognize the spirit. She is really stubborn and quiet, but as I was prompted to share personal stories, her shell was broken down and she really recognized what she needs to do.

Friday night we were walking back into town in the rain when a car rushed past us and soaked Sister Z and I. Sister Z exclaimed "hashtag, fail!" ….haha.  It was really funny!
SaturdayTerrible day!  ….. Our appointment was far away and it went really late, it was pouring rain, when we got a call from the primary president asking if I could play piano to practice for the primary program again. We rushed back to the house in the rain (4 miles plus a bus ride), then rushed to the church – at least a 10 minute walk. The practice went infinitely better than the first time. We arranged to have our coordination meeting at the church, but Carlos was about an hour late. But he brought cake as a peace offering, and paid me the highest complement of,  "you look pretty today, when it's hot out, you look less pretty." (I think direct translation of Portuguese is weird.) I'm glad that when it's not 110 degrees out, and I'm not covered in filth and sunscreen with my hair wadded in a ball, that can still look halfway presentable.



We had a really weird family home evening, it was apparent that this family has a lot of spiritual needs. Namely being the ability to recognize their own spiritual needs. It is so easy to find fault with others, but to humbly accept that we need to be obedient and change, is a completely different story. I thought about my unwillingness to fast, the feelings of anger and the rebellion that I felt as I expressed my rationalization for not heeding counsel, and then the feeling of strength an answer to prayers after submitting my will and being obedient. All the Lord asks for us to do, is to put off the natural man.  So often our pride and knowledge interfere with God's desire to bless us.

Sunday – long rough day. More rain. We left at 7:15 AM to walk 45 miles to help our investigator to get to church, only to arrive and have no one come to the gate. We walked half way back to the church and saw members of the church who gave us a ride and their ancient tiny car. It was a huge blessing even with the lack of a seat belt. We had zero investigators at church, and nine recent converts including G who didn't come. Church attendance was at about an all-time low. It's hard to not feel responsible, though I know that two young women with limited Portuguese skills can't do everything. We had an interesting half of a ward counsel on missionary work. Let's just say that my abilities to understand the language plummet when there is a disagreement or tension, that must mean that my Portuguese abilities are gifts of the spirit.

We visited a returned missionary who takes care of her elderly parents. It was pretty special to see her love and meticulous care even in the hardest of circumstances. I hope I can someday show my gratitude and love to my parents if they are no longer able to care for themselves.

That's one thing I've noticed here – the principles of love pain joy and suffering are universal. Never before has compassion been such an important characteristic for me to develop.  Everyone needs to know of the marvelous promise of the Savior, that we are never alone in this journey. Christ has felt everything, sickness, sadness, pain, and is waiting for us to accept his sacrifice.

I love you all I am learning so much here, and I can feel my spiritual understanding increase through personal revelation each day. I love this opportunity even if I don't love every aspect of serving in Brazil. Work is really good, though EVERY DAY is such a roller coaster. It is incredible how directly your physical well-being can effect your spiritual well-being and thought process. I find myself fighting negative "brain babble" as I strive to have the spirit. It is VERY easy to focus on all of the things that I legitimately HATE about Brazil. HATE.  I am seriously LOATHING the sticky floors and cockroaches/ants/snails/spiders/beetles/knats/mosquitos haha.  Other things that I can´t stand-- dogs mating in the streets, kittens dying on "sidewalks", the uneven streets, garbage everywhere, rivers of sewage, NOISE, etc.....buuuuutttt as I strive to focus on the people, on the work, on bearing my testimony, and uplifting my companion, things go better. Sister Z is great, though we definitely have more of a "coworker" type of relationship. We are having a few really good bonding experiences, and she is starting to open up....I will write more updates in my hand written note this week! 
 
I hope all is well! Be good!  Love, Sister Colvin